ME....SIMPLIFIED

With winter comes the need of warmth from sweaters as well as loved ones and obviously the latter is the one for which we creed more but for me this is gonna be yet another “icey icey” winter where even holding hands has become overrated .always bound by the governance of my parents i had wrongly thought that a job could give me my final deserving freedom of doing just everything but alas all goes in vain when Calcutta just wont leave me .everyday passing by nicco park and seeing couples holding each other i feel the chills more out of rage or maybe pain .my morning starts with my mother lamenting on the fact that i am so ordinary doing nothing great unlike my relatives, doing an ordinary job and not getting through any mba entrance or rather any exams, that is followed by the shuttle drive to sector 5 which is crowded with people complaining about their jobs or polluting the air with cigarette smoke and the lucky ones do find a lot of joints to make the deprived feel jealous (myself...

this is just another illustration of the epitome of emotions i am experiencing right now,was watching a show on t.v where it was a children's episode and a child cudn answer a question and started crying explicitly and that is wen this thought came across my mind---this child cudn answer a "googly"(as in their terms) and bursted out and in life the dimesions of these "googlies" just keep increasing and u just cant keep track of how many such situations u encounter and then u do wat? cry ,inadvertently in most cases bt since we r grown -ups now so it just bcomes implicit but we surely cry in our minds,in our hearts and try to lock ourselves in the bathroom and wail out,but finally u hav to cope up with the situation either by the aid of a chocolate or self consolence.move on with life ,forget the past,recollect memories wen u r down and continue creating similar 'memorably detestable' situations.the big question is ....Are we solely responsible for creat...

Revealing something like this to everyone is really an act of juvenility but my condition is so frustrating dat i had no way out rather than penning it down(metaphorically)..happy news, i am finally an engineer so my brooding blogs about studying at a mediocre college and living in a semi-urban area is over.so i am going to elaborate bout my current love life status a bit and u r most welcome to just close this window if u r not interested but some of u ,out there i need your opinion(my girlfriends,specially), i hav lost trust in the other side of the species. maybe its the lack of occupancy dat is driving me crazy on a failed relationship.but this was my relationship,the one i cherished,the one i loved to fight for even with my parents,the one dat was actually the only source of happiness for this otherwise very introvert girl,i wanted this to work so earnestly but maybe it was all my fault to take this to this disparaging hiatus which is still unacceptable to me.while he was out in ...

one thing that indians should be devoid of and i am not talking about mr onion here is the extraordinary voice level..that can rise up day by day just like the non-recoverable energy resource,oil..only thing that oil is more essential than the high pitched voice.. well biologically speaking there are vocal cords,uvula,and a tongue that help in producing the beautiful sounds which can ultimately get transformed into a commotion but while creating this beautiful homo sapien, god hadnt much realised her favourite creation has so many opinions and so much to talk that would eventually create noise pollution and musical inferences like 'sheila ki jawani'(like really there are so many important things ,like shotuing for help wen a fellow someone gets beaten up by bullies un front of u and u still prefer buying ur pizza and getting away asap in silence)..so no offence but you up there needs to tweak ur human creation a little and set a low decibel limit i tell u .. its amazing who d...

after a month long hospital experiences..visualising the hard reality,the invoking fear.. its been another month..things have changed..i have forgotten my real crush but yet he always comes by in my dreams,now i have a huge 'celebrity' crush on Ian Somerhalder but only that i dont get to c him at all which makes removal of the first crush from my mind a little difficult...and well the new addiction for vampires and the creed for them to exist in the real world has become highly overrated..listening to really good music and the effort to understand people around me,giving them chances,fighting a lot and making up still continues and definitely bitching too is still my preferance at leisure times.(well all girls bitch)..lately finding solace in the utterly juvenile yet innocent south east teleseries is my addition in this otherwise dull life of mine.. still something that scares me ...death,disease,weakness...hearing my mom out everyday and the pain she is suffering hurts me to...

So an experience at the hospital....definitely noone wants to hear and know..someplace a man never wants to visit and a married woman earnestly wants to but only once that too coz there is this custom of human coming out of human which god doesnt have much plan in changing.. but unfortunately i am having the "greatest fortune" of returning to the place where i was born, over and over and rather than the memory of coming to this world, the pain inflicted by the neeedles are way to severe.so now blogging with a some tubes inserted in the hand and a headache and a face full of dengue rashes it actually feels a little better,technology surely at rescue..a month ago my mother got admitted here ,underwent an adrenalectomy(dont stress much on understanding wat it is as u atleast need bio in xii and a little interest in the subject to decipher the actual significance of the operation)..well she went back home and now i am here sitting on that similar reclinable spread with a 1 me...

life...thinkin,thinking,thinkiing,thinkiinngg..and the process continues till one day u dont even have the ability to remember ur name..and then comes the vile disguise of the one u trust and takes u away.everything is so uncertain ..wat u ll grow up to be (einstein or just a person learning his laws),wat u ll look like (after all who doesn want to woo the indian cricket team captain),will u at all marry the person u love(all that fights and the money spent and parent's disagreement will go in vain otherwise)..and the biggest wen will u die?(u dont need to take 7 tuitions to get into iit and die an yr later)..overall life is a but a big ?and u dont hav the answer to any..trust me ..ok not me say darwin,even he simplified evolution so much that he still doesnt have the answer to the existence of a heart,a kidney,a liver...Hope we had assumptions and the oracle could actually decide and predict everything but we have so many assumptions that the poor thing would prefer resigning ..al...