ME....SIMPLIFIED

Revealing something like this to everyone is really an act of juvenility but my condition is so frustrating dat i had no way out rather than penning it down(metaphorically)..happy news, i am finally an engineer so my brooding blogs about studying at a mediocre college and living in a semi-urban area is over.so i am going to elaborate bout my current love life status a bit and u r most welcome to just close this window if u r not interested but some of u ,out there i need your opinion(my girlfriends,specially), i hav lost trust in the other side of the species. maybe its the lack of occupancy dat is driving me crazy on a failed relationship.but this was my relationship,the one i cherished,the one i loved to fight for even with my parents,the one dat was actually the only source of happiness for this otherwise very introvert girl,i wanted this to work so earnestly but maybe it was all my fault to take this to this disparaging hiatus which is still unacceptable to me.while he was out in ...

one thing that indians should be devoid of and i am not talking about mr onion here is the extraordinary voice level..that can rise up day by day just like the non-recoverable energy resource,oil..only thing that oil is more essential than the high pitched voice.. well biologically speaking there are vocal cords,uvula,and a tongue that help in producing the beautiful sounds which can ultimately get transformed into a commotion but while creating this beautiful homo sapien, god hadnt much realised her favourite creation has so many opinions and so much to talk that would eventually create noise pollution and musical inferences like 'sheila ki jawani'(like really there are so many important things ,like shotuing for help wen a fellow someone gets beaten up by bullies un front of u and u still prefer buying ur pizza and getting away asap in silence)..so no offence but you up there needs to tweak ur human creation a little and set a low decibel limit i tell u .. its amazing who d...

after a month long hospital experiences..visualising the hard reality,the invoking fear.. its been another month..things have changed..i have forgotten my real crush but yet he always comes by in my dreams,now i have a huge 'celebrity' crush on Ian Somerhalder but only that i dont get to c him at all which makes removal of the first crush from my mind a little difficult...and well the new addiction for vampires and the creed for them to exist in the real world has become highly overrated..listening to really good music and the effort to understand people around me,giving them chances,fighting a lot and making up still continues and definitely bitching too is still my preferance at leisure times.(well all girls bitch)..lately finding solace in the utterly juvenile yet innocent south east teleseries is my addition in this otherwise dull life of mine.. still something that scares me ...death,disease,weakness...hearing my mom out everyday and the pain she is suffering hurts me to...

So an experience at the hospital....definitely noone wants to hear and know..someplace a man never wants to visit and a married woman earnestly wants to but only once that too coz there is this custom of human coming out of human which god doesnt have much plan in changing.. but unfortunately i am having the "greatest fortune" of returning to the place where i was born, over and over and rather than the memory of coming to this world, the pain inflicted by the neeedles are way to severe.so now blogging with a some tubes inserted in the hand and a headache and a face full of dengue rashes it actually feels a little better,technology surely at rescue..a month ago my mother got admitted here ,underwent an adrenalectomy(dont stress much on understanding wat it is as u atleast need bio in xii and a little interest in the subject to decipher the actual significance of the operation)..well she went back home and now i am here sitting on that similar reclinable spread with a 1 me...

life...thinkin,thinking,thinkiing,thinkiinngg..and the process continues till one day u dont even have the ability to remember ur name..and then comes the vile disguise of the one u trust and takes u away.everything is so uncertain ..wat u ll grow up to be (einstein or just a person learning his laws),wat u ll look like (after all who doesn want to woo the indian cricket team captain),will u at all marry the person u love(all that fights and the money spent and parent's disagreement will go in vain otherwise)..and the biggest wen will u die?(u dont need to take 7 tuitions to get into iit and die an yr later)..overall life is a but a big ?and u dont hav the answer to any..trust me ..ok not me say darwin,even he simplified evolution so much that he still doesnt have the answer to the existence of a heart,a kidney,a liver...Hope we had assumptions and the oracle could actually decide and predict everything but we have so many assumptions that the poor thing would prefer resigning ..al...

let me just share some small talks.. 1)guys,obviously the very first thing that should come into the mind of a 'straight'girl..wen i sit in the car staring out of the window all i find are good looking,dashing men..desire for a perfect bf and all i end up is with .."aaaaaaaaaaa my bf"and his ignorance..the thought..like he isnt one of the best luking guys in town nor amongst the 'top (say) 1000'then wy stick with an ignorant so so man wen i definitely deserve more(w.r.t the fact ..,even friedo pinto is getting a role in a Woody Allen film). 2)i sometimes hate my mom so much for her over expectations from me,for me..and her excessive agitations at times,skepticism..and being so whimsical always bt tonight i had a heart-to-heart chat with her and i discovered that i am no more this 'scared daughter always getting rebuked for the wrong as well as the right reasons'..trust me wen its right i own up coz i feel guilty for being such a douche at times bt wen...

The first one..was quite subtle..my mom left me the previous time with my maternal relatives wen i was suffering from the dreadful but obvious malariae ...so they had to make up for it..so (i don’t remember the exact season ) it was time to go foreign..maybe in standard 8 or 9 then, have had the experience to visit the SAARC countries it was something i was anticipating for long then..so bags all packed boarding the thai airways ..TG 311 was so alluring..one of the many conveniences of the international flight—food and obviously entertainment goes hand in hand..though i missed the opportunity of visualising the shockingly fascinating lighted skyline of Bangkok as the plane landed at 7 in the morning but at that time the flamboyant skyscrapers were enough to enthral me..so then went another week shopping at the 24 hrs open shopping malls and the street shops which resembled our ”new market” ,scampering some Indian restaurants to not annoy our taste buds with their famous fish sauce and...