ME....SIMPLIFIED

its like u suffer these symptoms wen ur too self conscious...and it drags u to hell..the hell which is more deep than just few flames and a boiling pot where u r ready to be the main ingredient of the soup...its more like a headache which never goes away,its like u r cheated by life itself,its a complete 'emotional attaychar' to be more specific which is obtained by oneself ...now wat is 'self consciousness'..a drug which is detrimental ..too detrimental..a toxic substance which destroys u slowly.. i find myself to be a victim and its killing me.trust me..the pain,the tears,the solitude,the fucking emotions..sometimes u feel like dying underage and goin to heaven atleast an identity which is killing the human mechanism might be lost..and so the emotions...the fucking feature which makes human life intolerable at some instances..like tears----wen does the lachrymal glands get overburdened and cannot hold those overpowering hot water drops..u never know..it comes durin pa...

i have like written 6 blogs till now..nothing great but then i havent actually elaborately mentioned about someone whom i shud give undue credit to ...not for this idea of blogging at all ..but just a personal muchas gracias(its spanish 'thank u' by the way) for everything i feel today..exactly, not "everything i am today" coz that is sure to be a 'parents take it all line'...and the capability of expressing myself today is all because of this one person who ever since has entered my life has made it "interesting"..trust me...thats the word i cud fish out....maybe u guys reading out there wont be interested enough but see its a courtesy..6 blogs!!...and no him plus i have reprimanded him in 'love rusts' that too...so i thought lets not insult this man further coz he is my 'first'and'last'hope afterall..and i mean it..like---"hello,u are always busy with ur friends ..get lost i ll never talk to you ever ever again..bye by...

According to wat i perceived in these few days ...innocence is actually foolishness..and i mean a great deal of foolishness..so girls wen u hear from ur partners,"dear, u have lost ur inncocence"..it actually refers to the fact that he is trying to scoop up some affair which now u hav the capability of identifying...so actually its gud ..never be innocent enough to not see into what is coming from ur beloved.. apart from adults ...who are some rare victims of "innocence turned foolishness"..children.."little angels"..are the stupidest ppl i have ever come across(not at ttheir on fault though)..no offense ..i love kids ..bt their stupidity is way too much to engulf...if i like one particular kid from the lot ..trust me..i wud just go forward and rescue him/her from the upcoming humility he/she is about to face and then regret thinking bout it the entire life... there was this cricket "match" goin on in my para..with 5 "players".who ace a...

i was watching this famous and i mean extremely "famous" reality show today called ROADIES 7 ...i have been following roadies for the past 5 yrs and not because it has anything substantial in it but merely because of its stupidity..entertainment is a necessity and wat more than watching people making fun of themselves thoough they think quite the contrary.in the interview version questions like the very basic ones "wy do u want to be a roadie?" to the sometimes 'how many times have u been laid?' types are asked and strikingly people have unique answers just to be in the show ..bt it made me think and share with u ppl that there are ppl who jus because were kicked out in the prelims an year ago had tried to stop living,quit college,quit socialising,give up every normal humane activity just to be in this show where the participants dont even have the basic knowledge of the names of 3 countries in africa and at 22 still under the illusion or rather imaginatio...

cuddling my pillow at night i weep like the old days wen i was lonely,very lonely....with my disability to express my thoughts and the shy,complex opinion bout everything i cud never really open up to my parents so always in the search of the perfect person to share everything with,who wud listen to me..ignore my stupidity a times wen i wud end up talking too much irrelevant..just tolerate..advise me..make me laugh.a friend to look upto ,,a friend who wud love me..a friend in the form of anyone..unfortunately it cudn be my parents as for "trying to be modern bt conservative" ppl they were,i had to dwell upon the consequence of disclosing everything..and friends..frankly i was not gud at that at all..too shy,too lazy,too unsocial.so i was a loner..completely..my pillow and my birds..my only companions..i wud cry to them,talk to them like a complete psycho, frustrated with life wud do.. then came this person ..a friend who gradually became that person i was searching for.we bo...

I am noone to decide wat the world shud be like coz i am jus a part of the huge population and as everyone is at god's mercy so am i ...bt there are moments wen i jus feel like changing the world in my way ..or atleast creating a new place for myself to live in coz most of the times my surrounding sucks ...sucks bigtime..everyone is born coz they are destined ..some live ordinary throughout their entire lives and some make it big ..they make it big coz they are simply lucky..i am sure situations and circumstances have never been enough detrimental to them at any point of time...hardwork is essential but sometimes u loose it wen things go completely wrong and u give up wen destiny has decided something else for you.. i believe everything is decided for you from birth..if u are lucky you are born to some well being people with a golden or atleast a steel spoon in your mouth and if god decides that u are just a trash he throws u to some slum where even a plastic spoon is unaffordable...

Recently analysing the fact that lovers these days have very less privacy as more liberal the current generation gets about interaction and intimacy with the opposite sex the lesser gets the space availabilty for spending some alone time with each other.the entire problem in our lives arise actually due to the whole generation gap factor..suddenly their is an open-up and we are the ones who has to do all the explainings to our parents as well as ourself...maybe this entire new oppurtunity of being more independent ..enjoying more from life has not been all that gud enough for many..as we have been gifted with a whole new understanding these days that the line of forbidden entry to the opposite sex's territory before marriage is leased out the more has our expectations risen ..following the western traditions with heart and soul some few places of interesting sightseeing has been created by the humans themselves which i believe are quite entertaining for people like us..the shame ,t...