HAPPY

I am noone to decide wat the world shud be like coz i am jus a part of the huge population and as everyone is at god's mercy so am i ...bt there are moments wen i jus feel like changing the world in my way ..or atleast creating a new place for myself to live in coz most of the times my surrounding sucks ...sucks bigtime..everyone is born coz they are destined ..some live ordinary throughout their entire lives and some make it big ..they make it big coz they are simply lucky..i am sure situations and circumstances have never been enough detrimental to them at any point of time...hardwork is essential but sometimes u loose it wen things go completely wrong and u give up wen destiny has decided something else for you..
i believe everything is decided for you from birth..if u are lucky you are born to some well being people with a golden or atleast a steel spoon in your mouth and if god decides that u are just a trash he throws u to some slum where even a plastic spoon is unaffordable.but we have heard people making it big from very ordinary background..bullshit!!..i dont believe so..its either they are very lucky or they have source..otherwise wen thousands of scientists are striving to earn that lil amount of respect and repute for their research these days Newton managed to have all that for that lucky apple ..which was so obvious..its actually the word called "TIME".time and tide waits for none..the factor that can change a man's life completely...
as in the movie "pursuit of happiness"..how can one be so patient and not give up wen everything is going so wrong..trying to pursue happiness wen it is rejecting u at evry point of time..bt its just in movies that people seem to have so much patience..a better option in real life..swallow poison and free urself from the worries..
Sometimes i sit back in a cozy sofa and just try to imagine wat it would be like wen i am old enough..wud i be "happy" or just compromising..i feel like doing something this very moment to make myself step into some better future..but wat!!!..there seems no way out..you cant do watever you like..you gotto struggle,work really hard,face all the storm,the disappointments,at times feel like ending it..to be "happy"..if u r not lucky enough so then i conclude compromising wud be a much better option.i want to be a movie star but dont have the poise or the "family backing"...a scientist..dont have the skills..a writer ..dont have the patience..a musician ..dont have energy..where will i be fifteen years from now??..is the question that scares me..really scares me..a complete loser..maybe working in some mnc,with a loving husband and children to care about too..earning a monthly wage for the enormous stress and energy spent ..even wen watching a movie with my family i wud be thinking bout going to the office next day..and facing my boss,and competing with my colleagues..shit..i am scared..
for me an ideal future would be living in a small island with family..writing books maybe.or singing songs..away from the hyperactive crowd..just enjoying the solace of the nature...bt i am scared coz that wud never happen..so ppl my advice is to store and completely rejoice the smallest bit of happiness u get these days..never know where life wud take u ..

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  1. UnknownNovember 1, 2009 at 10:39 AM

    its nt bad actually..ur writing s getting mature wid every post..bt ur thoughts r too childish i guess..god??luck??..do they really matter..i dont know..

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