ME....SIMPLIFIED

The first one..was quite subtle..my mom left me the previous time with my maternal relatives wen i was suffering from the dreadful but obvious malariae ...so they had to make up for it..so (i don’t remember the exact season ) it was time to go foreign..maybe in standard 8 or 9 then, have had the experience to visit the SAARC countries it was something i was anticipating for long then..so bags all packed boarding the thai airways ..TG 311 was so alluring..one of the many conveniences of the international flight—food and obviously entertainment goes hand in hand..though i missed the opportunity of visualising the shockingly fascinating lighted skyline of Bangkok as the plane landed at 7 in the morning but at that time the flamboyant skyscrapers were enough to enthral me..so then went another week shopping at the 24 hrs open shopping malls and the street shops which resembled our ”new market” ,scampering some Indian restaurants to not annoy our taste buds with their famous fish sauce and...

Déjà vu.....,imagining myself working in a coal mine, meagre salary, unobtainable luxury food, the no bed but just a cot arrangement and electricity like the flickering fate...the extreme of hardship i cud ever imagine, the ultimate route to self destruction ....and there goes the alarm...with the roadster tone in the nokia 3110 classic,1 of my many saviours currently..snooze, alarm, snooze..wake up ..”fuck fuck fuck ..its 8.30.. half an hour to oblivion”..gulp some water, put on the filthy coloured fading yellow shirt with more fading blue stripes on it and the mosquito non- repellent obvious blue trousers and definitely the tie(which i cant tie by myself though)..put in 2 to 3 copies (lately....,as previously i used to maintain an universal copy for all subjects which my mom had bought me wen i got admitted to this ‘never going to be a reminiscence alma mater’..now that the copies are over i thought i wud not be so irresponsible and scamper for notes later so bought 6 copies but on...

girls,take a break..really u must ..its important coz the guys really hav loads of trouble keeping up with ur expectations which actually soar high enough to kill them prematurely.now dont think otherwise as i too belong to the category..but there are certain things rather certain "disqualities" that women possess which i detest..trust me i always try to correct myself in these cases but the realisation is so late that things already get worse for the other person.. that is wat i exactly wish..girls, realise soon enough not to hurt someone.now lets c.. waiting-a pain,wearing those high heels and waiting for ur bf on the middle of the street where ppl actually stare at ur curvature..its irritating,disturbing and fucking u want to point out ur middle finger high up to the jerks on road..bt this is calcutta dear so u let out all on ur bf,legitimate bt a little awry..hear out the guy, give him a chance..if he is like "sorry, i cudn wake up"..take out ur pointed heels an...

its like u suffer these symptoms wen ur too self conscious...and it drags u to hell..the hell which is more deep than just few flames and a boiling pot where u r ready to be the main ingredient of the soup...its more like a headache which never goes away,its like u r cheated by life itself,its a complete 'emotional attaychar' to be more specific which is obtained by oneself ...now wat is 'self consciousness'..a drug which is detrimental ..too detrimental..a toxic substance which destroys u slowly.. i find myself to be a victim and its killing me.trust me..the pain,the tears,the solitude,the fucking emotions..sometimes u feel like dying underage and goin to heaven atleast an identity which is killing the human mechanism might be lost..and so the emotions...the fucking feature which makes human life intolerable at some instances..like tears----wen does the lachrymal glands get overburdened and cannot hold those overpowering hot water drops..u never know..it comes durin pa...

i have like written 6 blogs till now..nothing great but then i havent actually elaborately mentioned about someone whom i shud give undue credit to ...not for this idea of blogging at all ..but just a personal muchas gracias(its spanish 'thank u' by the way) for everything i feel today..exactly, not "everything i am today" coz that is sure to be a 'parents take it all line'...and the capability of expressing myself today is all because of this one person who ever since has entered my life has made it "interesting"..trust me...thats the word i cud fish out....maybe u guys reading out there wont be interested enough but see its a courtesy..6 blogs!!...and no him plus i have reprimanded him in 'love rusts' that too...so i thought lets not insult this man further coz he is my 'first'and'last'hope afterall..and i mean it..like---"hello,u are always busy with ur friends ..get lost i ll never talk to you ever ever again..bye by...

According to wat i perceived in these few days ...innocence is actually foolishness..and i mean a great deal of foolishness..so girls wen u hear from ur partners,"dear, u have lost ur inncocence"..it actually refers to the fact that he is trying to scoop up some affair which now u hav the capability of identifying...so actually its gud ..never be innocent enough to not see into what is coming from ur beloved.. apart from adults ...who are some rare victims of "innocence turned foolishness"..children.."little angels"..are the stupidest ppl i have ever come across(not at ttheir on fault though)..no offense ..i love kids ..bt their stupidity is way too much to engulf...if i like one particular kid from the lot ..trust me..i wud just go forward and rescue him/her from the upcoming humility he/she is about to face and then regret thinking bout it the entire life... there was this cricket "match" goin on in my para..with 5 "players".who ace a...

i was watching this famous and i mean extremely "famous" reality show today called ROADIES 7 ...i have been following roadies for the past 5 yrs and not because it has anything substantial in it but merely because of its stupidity..entertainment is a necessity and wat more than watching people making fun of themselves thoough they think quite the contrary.in the interview version questions like the very basic ones "wy do u want to be a roadie?" to the sometimes 'how many times have u been laid?' types are asked and strikingly people have unique answers just to be in the show ..bt it made me think and share with u ppl that there are ppl who jus because were kicked out in the prelims an year ago had tried to stop living,quit college,quit socialising,give up every normal humane activity just to be in this show where the participants dont even have the basic knowledge of the names of 3 countries in africa and at 22 still under the illusion or rather imaginatio...